waiting on the front porch

she just stood there on the front porch waiting for her will to come and get her she was packed she had a suitcase full of noble intentions she had a map and a straight face hell bent on reinvention she was learning about please and huge humilities then one day she looked around her and everything up til then was showing and she wondered how did i get here without even knowing where i was going? ~ani difranco

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Wednesday, November 15, 2006


my original post for today went something like: i'm in essay-land, which is blahblahblah boring, to those of you who are not in university. suffice it to say, i'm in the throes of creating a 12-page paper which is worth 75% of my grade, which was already due two days ago...yammer yammer. i'll do it. i sort of have to, and i might not even get marks taken off, but that's sort of what's on the forefront of my mind.
that and my eating habits.

i do take an anti-depressant every day, but i'm also convinced that "you are what you eat" is one of the basic truths in the world. i try to eat pro-actively - by that i mean staying away from the things that i know will aggravate my health.

met (whose nickname, by the way, stems from the word metrosexual, because lord, when this boy goes out? his keychain lanyard has to match his OUTFIT) constantly tells me how much of a hippie i am, and i can't really refute it.

my mother, coming into my teenaged bedroom which was covered in jim morrison posters and stank like patchouli, used to tell me i was born in the wrong decade. i took that as a compliment.

i work at an organic food store for a reason - i'm into health food. i keep my nails short, because, on the one hand they split once they grow a millimetre, but also - long nails just get in the way. i don't dye my hair anymore. last spring i started shaving again after not doing so for 3 years. i want to live in the country eventually. i buy recycled everything, i pick garbage off the street to make art with (plus people around here throw away beautiful things because they suddenly go out of fashion), and i love wearing my overalls.

one of the things we heard most from people when we started telling people that we were together was, "really? but you're so different." sure we are, i guess, on the surface. for starters, there's the whole he's black/i'm white thing. then (oh my god!) there's the fact that we have different clothing styles. he likes reading plays and manga, and hates actual fiction, but he knows that he has to read mine. we write different genres. (he's the playwright, obviously. i'm the poet/short story girl.)

but underneath we are so similar, it's comforting. we love to talk about everything. we share the same fierce loyalty to our loved ones. we have the same weird, sarcastic sense of humour. we love to tease.

and the one thing he loves to tease me about the most is my hippie-ness. a couple months ago i realized how bad my anemia was getting. it was getting that bad because i never really cooked meat for myself, was not on a tofu kick, and i had stopped eating nuts out of loyalty to him. (would you keep something around your house that your loved one was fatally allergic to?)

so that situation had to be fixed in a hurry.

protein is also extra-specially good for me because of my c.p.

the more protein i eat, the less my muscles hurt, because the less they're eating themselves - so it's fun all around. so i started stocking up on different proteins.

then we got this book in the store. coconut oil is the next miracle food in the organics industry. mind that all i'm about to say is !!my opinion only!! but damn, does it promise a lot of good stuff. a lot of the fat that we eat (the scary fat, the one that we're warned about) is, more technically, a long-chained fatty acid. (don't know what that is? me neither.) coconut oil, on the other hand, is a medium-chain fatty acid - it helps break down a lot of the toxins in the body.
apparently, it can also: build up your immune system, slow down the effects of alzheimers', speed up your metabolism (therefore enabling you to lose weight), strengthen the connective tissues in your body, help brain function.

sounds wonderful? there's a catch, of course. the oil that you're supposed to take is highly stable - meaning it's thick. and waxy. and it's expensive (in canadian dollars i paid $26.95 for a 473 ml. bottle). and you have to take 4 tsps. a day.

so this morning it all sort of synthesized for me. here i was, making my oatmeal with extra quinoa and sunflower seed butter for protein (met calls that butter "whipped shit", if i recall, and REFUSES to try it) - and sweetening it with agave syrup and rice milk, and then i had my supplements all lined up - my effexor, sure, but my vitamin b12 (for my depression), and my coconut oil too. and i had this moment where i stood back and LAUGHED at myself.

because the transition is complete. i am now, officially, the mega hippie.


Blogger Sacred Suzie said...

Take care of yourself Bee! Don't get too lost in essay-land, make sure to rest when you get the chance.

7:46 a.m.  
Blogger Cheryl said...

Hey, take a break from the essay now and then, ok? But good luck nonetheless.

Way to own your hippie-ness.

8:10 a.m.  
Anonymous swampgrrl said...

hi bee! thanks for stopping by my blog. etta james rocks!!

it looks from your latest post that we are soul-sistas. i recycle everything and buy organic. i worked in a health food store and became the cook there for a couple of years. i followed around the Grateful Dead in the 80s, during which i took hippy showers (splashing patchouli under my arms). i stopped shaving my hair off, always cut off my finger-nails, i love quinoa and tofu cream cheese. i'm eating some homemade rolled oat cereal with unprocessed honey and ghee for breakfast right now.

i never liked jim morrison tho. and i've got to check out coconut oil.

anyway, i'm gonna come back and visit tomorrow!

9:15 a.m.  
Blogger Deb R said...

Lordy, Bee, I wish you and I lived closer together. You know about lots of stuff that sounds fascinating to me, but about which I know little or nothing! BTW, I'm now singing "Mega Hippie to the Res-cuuuue...."

11:58 a.m.  
Blogger Spiky Zora Jones said...

Like dude...like all that organic stuff is good for yah, huh? you have to put on some rose colored wire-rimmed glasses, accent your face with a daisy tucked into your hair. put on your tie-dyed multi colored dress. to complete your hippiness you have to get tuned into the music...play some Crosby Stills Nash and Young, umm...'wooden ships' will do. Oh and to top it all, Iron Butterfly's 'In-A-Gadda-Da-Vida.' Now you are offically a hippie...dude. Ha!
my mom's record collection is vast. fab post sweetie...later.

1:07 p.m.  
Blogger Scott said...

Congrats on making the full transition to ultimate hippiness.


1:22 p.m.  
Blogger la vie en rose said...

i love it! you'll have to give me some recipes. since becoming a vegan i seem to eat the same foods over and over again until i get bored...

...and yes, i take my b12 too...

2:37 p.m.  
Anonymous ceanandjen said...

You rock sweet hippie princess! I know absolutely nothing about organic foods, so anything that I can learn from you is greatly appreciated! :-) I have to say though, that last night I made myself some mate tea and added some honey and herbal immune system drops to it. I thought I was being quite the healthy gal too! ha ha

xoxoxoxo to you!

2:49 p.m.  
Blogger Jessie said...

you might be a mega hippie...but i'm comin' over for breakfast! :)

rock on sister!

thanks for the reminder to take my B vitamins. i've been a slacker and um...i think i need them lately!

3:16 p.m.  
Blogger melba said...

This summer my cousin said I looked like I was turning into a hippie because of my long hair and the outfit I had on. My Mom has always called me "Nature Girl" because I always liked to be naked and I am into healthier eating than the rest of my family.

I never took any of those comments as negative.

Mega Hippie Girl Rocks!!!

6:30 p.m.  
Blogger a m y said...

I'm half hippie...and I get shit for it, too. Oh well. We know all about peace, love and happiness. XO

12:02 a.m.  

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